Proof positive lol

Proof positive lol

Man it is foggy at the track today! Oh and i saw that coyote again this morning. I am currently walking btw lol.

Morning Walk

Morning Walk

A Momentary Glance

    I talked to my Mom last night. I hadn't talked to her in almost 18 years. That is such a long time not to speak to one's mother. But she passed away in 1990. It was of course, in a dream. It's just that for a reason that is still unclear to me, we have never spoken, until now.
    It really wasn't a dream any different than the ones she has been in all these years. We are usually here at home and both of us seemingly healthy. She and i going about our lives as if everything was normal. But we have always just passed each other by. Walking down the hall, we pass silent, or as i was walking out the door, she would be coming in. Not one single word has ever been exchanged between us, only feelings.
    My dreams can be many things at once. Full of fear or insecurity at one moment and shear terror the next. But when she enters, all is calm. She brings with her, my peace. Like a deserved break from an alien attack. Or a calm feeling as i see the tornado passing far off to the northeast. These much needed re-assurances of my well being, follow her as she enters, and remains with me as she quietly leaves. I am safe once again.
    This is how i have dreamed of my Mom. It has just always been that way. Until last nights dream.
    I had dropped a glass on the tile floor in the living room. I was on my knees wiping up the mess, being careful not to cut myself, but also wanting to get even the slightest sliver of broken glass up off the floor.
    I glance up and see Mom walking into the room, apparently on her way to the kitchen. I go back to picking up the pieces, then i think to myself, i want to tell her something. I stop and look up at her. She stops and looks at me.
    "I miss you Mom.", i say.  "I miss you too Son.", she says to me.

My Contribution

Well i donated my 1230 Grains of Rice.
That makes me feel better about the double quarter pounder i just ate.
Anyone want to match my donation?

FreeRice

Three things i learned this week

I love to learn new things. The problem is it has always had to be on my own terms. Whenever someone has asked me to try and do something new or learn something i did not know before, i resist. Well i actually downright refuse most of the time. But when it's my own idea or i can at least think its my idea i jump in so easily, so readily. It becomes a joy, an adventure. The whole experience of it, the trial and error, the sudden realizations of knowing. Its just so awesome to me.
Now the problem arises when its all external. Work for example. God forbid i have to learn a new job at work. I feel like i want to quit work entirely, rather than learn something new. Even the most simple of new things, tears me up inside. Its not what i want to do. Its forced upon me and i can see no joy in it what so ever. Why, i don't know. It would be so much easier if i did.

But what i learned on my own this week is so cool.

One thing leads to another.
Now that may not seem like an awesome thing to learn but its true. It's oh so true.
Lets begin at the beginning. Oxytocin. A chemical secreted during labor. Thats about as beginning as it gets. It causes contractions during labor. But like i said that is just the beginning.
It also stimulates milk secretion during breast feeding. So its a pretty good bet it ends up in the breast milk. And who receives this breast milk? The child of course. What affect does it have on the child? Well studies have shown that Oxytocin promotes bonding, love and monogamy. It's released in humans when we love or are falling in love. When we feel close or trust someone strongly. It's released in orgasms and has been shown to cause erections when injected in mice.
Can you think of all the times that this one chemical has affected your choices? What this one chemical has done to change or alter your life? Not just its presence but also the lack of it in your system. What does this mean to the millions of babies that are not breastfed? How and when do they get their first experience of love if not thru breast feeding? Would it make them less close to their mothers? Less likely to love as deeply when adults? Bonding, trust, love. All chemically based on Oxytocin.

What other chemical reactions are actually what we once thought, was our own unique personality?

Lastly, i learned that a movie has actually been made that so closely resembles a theme of one of my stories, its amazing. I watched it and couldn't believe it. Its as if the script writer read one of my entries and wrote a story around it. If i was a cynical person i would be upset. But to me it's so cool. To think that someone out there had the same feeling, but after i did. I was first and thats good enough for me. I mean i just learned all that about Oxytocin. About its affects on love and bonding and sex. I wasn't the first. In all actuality Freud was the first. He just didn't realize it was all about a chemical. Instead he believed it to be all in our minds.

Three things i learned in a week... not bad. You're never too old i guess.

A Neat Quote

"You get to a certain age and everyone you meet has a logical connection to someone or some event in your past".

Well thats basically the quote. From a movie i watched, about 3 minutes of anyway. It just struck me as very accurate. I heard it as i woke up or as i was in between awake and asleep, i'm not sure. It entered my conscious self as i was trying to remember a woman in my dream. She was someone i had just met and we were going over our mutual acquaintances.

But trying to remember the quote, i let the womans identity slip away. All in all, i think i would rather have remembered her.

But i guess she was the words not the dream.

How about a little reading material?
High gas prices means we're running out of oil, Right?

Well not according to This article.

How Much Oil Is Left?
"Scaremongers are fond of reminding us that the total amount of oil
in the Earth is finite and cannot be replaced during the span of human life.
This is true; yet estimates of the world’s total oil endowment have
grown faster than humanity can pump petroleum out of the ground"

Hmmm, so we are constantly finding new oil. Who knew?
And to prove the point, did anyone hear about this on the news lately?

Scientists Discover (Biggest Ever) Oil field off U.S. coast.

"The find is some 60 billion barrels or 3 Times more than current US recoverable Oil of 20 Billion barrels."

"This is enough Oil to make the US self sufficient and make
foreign Oil supply disruption a thing of the past."

Maybe i wasn't paying attention. After all it was May 1, 2006.
Who knew?
Actually Larry Cathles did in 2003.

Cathles and his team estimate that in a study area of about 9,600 square miles off the coast of Louisiana, source rocks a dozen kilometers down have generated as much as 184 billion tons of oil and gas — about 1,000 billion barrels of oil and gas equivalent. "That's 30 percent more than we humans have consumed over the entire petroleum era," Cathles says. "And that's just this one little postage stamp area; if this is going on worldwide, then there's a lot of hydrocarbons venting out."

But hey lets for arguments sake, say we didn't discover this whopper of an Oil Field.

"The estimates above do not include unconventional oil resources. Conventional oil refers to oil that is pumped out of the ground with minimal processing; unconventional oil resources consist largely of tar sands and oil shales that require processing to extract liquid petroleum. Unconventional oil resources are very large. In the future, new technologies that allow extraction of these unconventional resources likely will increase the world’s reserves.

* Oil production from tar sands in Canada and South America would add about 600 billion barrels to the world’s supply.

* Rocks found in the three western states of Colorado, Utah and Wyoming alone contain 1,500 billion barrels of oil.

* Worldwide, the oil-shale resource base could easily be as large as 14,000 billion barrels — more than 500 years of oil supply at year 2000 production rates."
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And what the heck is going on at Eugene Island 330?
An oil field re-filling? Now we have too much Oil!

Well i for one think that ought to be enough... for now.

So why the high gas prices?

The Myth Of Peak Oil -
An internal Chevron memo states; "A senior energy analyst at the recent API convention warned that if the US petroleum industry doesn't reduce its refining capacity it will never see any substantial increase in refinery margins."

The Memos make clear that blockages in refining capacity and opening new refineries did not come from environmental organizations, as the oil industry claimed, but via a deliberate policy of limitation and price gouging at the behest of the oil industry itself.

Just a little research i did to help me understand why the high prices. And why if they say we are running out of oil that the big oil companies aren't running scared and trying to find alternative fuels. The reason i believe they aren't is...

1. We aren't out of oil, Just the opposite. There is a huge supply.

2. If it was common knowledge how much oil we really had, the price per barrel would collapse.

... well thats what i found out.

Links:
National Center For Policy Analysis - Are We Running Out of Oil?

NewTechSpy - Scientists Discover (Biggest Ever) Oil field off U.S. coast

GeoTimes - Raining hydrocarbons in the Gulf

WSJ - Odd Reservoir Off Louisiana

The Myth Of Peak Oil

 Click The Pic

Someone asked me not too long ago what the desktop/wallpaper looked like on my computer. Well here's a quick screen capture of what it looks like. Thats what i see while i am goofing off on the net.

The Wallpaper is a photo i took at Woolaroc back in the spring of this year. It's nice to look at and remember how warm it was that day. I remember driving around the park with my windows down, man it was nice. Lol. Oh well winter will be over soon.

Lets see... on the left is my mp3 player i wrote(bragging here). I wanted one that only showed the text info on the desktop with no window around it. So.. ahem, i had to write one. Lol. It took me a long time but i got it the way i wanted it. It works great. Lots of features you can't see in the pic.

On the right starting at the top is the program SysMetrix. Its a free program that lets you setup alot of different text info stuff along with a clock. I have it showing the Lo and Hi temps for the day. The current temp and short description of the conditons. And finally the barometric pressure and whether its rising or falling. Oh and upper right of the clock it tells me how many new emails i have. Pretty snazzy and like i said its free. You can put all the different things where you want them. I wanted a neat little grouping.

Below that i have Rainlender, another free program. It's a calendar program that shows the month day and date and auto updates so i don't have to. It also lets you set little reminders as well.

Well thats about it i guess. I don't see anything else. Like tons of icons that is. Hehe. Shortcuts drive me crazy. Or hadn't you noticed? Funny thing tho i can leave my socks scattered all over the floor. That doesn't bother me. But let me see a desktop covered in shortcuts and i think, "Oh My God!" Lol. Some people say i am too picky. I don't think i am. About certain things i am, i guess. Wait, thats what picky means isn't it?

No stories today, or the last year even. But i been busy thinking of stuff to write. All of them just my dreams. I have had some vivid dreams this past year. I wake up thinking man that wasn't a dream that was a movie. One in particular, if i told you about it, would freak you out. I mentioned it to someone at work and he freaked out. Said he didn't want to hear anymore. It scared him. Then it scared me all over again because he got scared. I mean i went to him to be teased and made fun of to help me get over it. He wasn't no help.

So see basically i have held it all in this past year. No need to thank me. Just doing my job. So you won't have to.



 

Fatty Koo

Ok, You Said Post Something. How 'bout this?

8 And their dead bodies shall lie in the street of the great city.

9 And they of the people and kindreds and tongues and nations shall see their dead bodies three days and an half, and shall not suffer their dead bodies to be put in graves.
        Revelation 11 (King James Version)

Hmmm... sound familiar? Anyone?
New Orleans maybe?

Dog Daze
... yeah thats what it is. Its so hot and muggy here all i do is sleep and sweat. I haven't felt cool enough or clean enough to actually post anything(just got out of the shower) until now. No news is good news when your hot and sweaty. Oh wait i do have some news... my grass just keeps on a growin'. Being single again means no girlfriend with a grass mowin' kid. I gotta find me a woman... i miss that kid.

Duke&Vance heading West 

My first post via cellphone... Lol

Hand In Hand
Kiss me quick, It's now or never.
Hold me close, we can make it last forever.
We'll take the time, to find our way.
We'll teach each other, the tricks life loves to play.
Hold my hand in yours, I'll hold yours in mine.
We'll not hurry, We'll go slow, We'll take our time.
From the dawning of the day, to the setting of the sun.
We'll be with each other, our spirits one.
Forever in time we'll pass hand in hand.
'Til the stars fall from the heavens.
And we count each grain of sand.

Forever In My Dreams

In my dreams at night, I think of you.
      You're always in my heart.
In my dreams at night, I miss you.
      I cry when we're apart.

In my dreams at night, I see you.
      I pray you're always there.
In my dreams at night, I hold you.
      A long embrace we share.

In my dreams at night, I kiss you.
      With a soft and gentle touch.
In my dreams at night, I tell you.
      I love you so very much.

In my dreams at night, It's always you.
      My world is you it seems.
In my dreams at night, I'll live with you.
      Forever in my dreams.

Between Two Lovers
Is it true what they say?
When one's love is far away.
Does absence make the heart grow fonder?
Or just comfort when their love we ponder.

Are we closer some how, some way?
Are they near enough to say?
That their love to us is real.
And their touch we truly feel.

In love their is no distance.
Always a path of least resistance.
For a million miles between two lovers
Is but inches for the mind to cover.

Coming Soon...

A New Novel
by
I.M. Pouncer

Blood On The Door Step

"My Life As A Bird Killer"

... a dark, hunter green Camaro with fully tinted windows pulls into the driveway.
I grab my wallet and keys and nervously step out of the house and lock the door behind me.
Climbing inside, I sit down hard beside her in the plush bucket seats. No hello's are spoken.

Maybe it was the fact that the time between visits had grown longer. How the usual six months
or so of not seeing her had grown to a full year. But this time it all seemed more ominous.
"You know" i said, "sometimes you scare me." She gives me that arrogant knowing smile i have come to expect from her and replies, "Why is that?"

I look away from her. Too scared even to say it to her face. "Its just... that sometimes.. I think you don't expect to live out the day." With the last word slipping from my lips i face her again.

"Oh really?", she says. Smiling even wider. "Why does that scare you?"

Not letting me turn away this time. I can feel her pulling it out of me. The words i dread to speak.

I hear myself say, "because i know that you will still out-live me."

She starts the car.

No New Posts... yet
Lets see... well lets start by saying that the somewhat cryptic post is a line from
the movie The MothMan Prophecies. A rather good movie sort of in the vain of The Ring
but not really. They are two very different movies. But they are both horror movies I guess.
I Liked them both fairly well. A surprise to me that I did. I mean how can any movie be scary
after having seen the movie The Prophecy. Whoo! what a scary movie.

Nothing new here. Lots of long nights at work preparing myself for the coming season of grass.
Where rain comes after a week of preparation and self-pity, self-denial, and self-abuse(not the sexual kind).
In the futile attempt to shame myself into getting behind the push mower. Letting the rain give me an out for another day.Followed by days and days of people, friends and neighbors driving by to look at the slow steady growth of green. Wondering if anyone is at home, asleep, or looking at them thru ever so slightly parted curtains.

Sure looks cloudy now tho... maybe tomorrow. .

It's here. The season of grass... No Mow... No Mow...No Mow.

How 'bout a song to commemorate

b2d is Listening to...
Song: No More
Artist: Blind Boys of Alabama
Album: Spirit of the Century